SERENDIPITY

Posted on April 22, 2008 by jc-hitomi.
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Life
is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. But
rather it’s a tapestry of events that culminate an exquisite, sublime
plan.

Thats the lines said during the obituary scene in
Serendipity; gosh I really love that movie and mind you Ive been
watching it a hundred times all over again and I never get tired of it.
Never!

I know we are bound of making an unsought findings and yet we still possess a powerful faith to believe that something somehow really exists“FATUM, or what we currently refer to as DESTINY.

Have
you ever feel secretly clung to the belief that we do have our unknown
side of psyche? protracted searching of unrevealed missing part and
yearning of our long-reputed soul mate?

I DO, how bout you???

In a life that I can’t live

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Just late last night I watched news though Im not that so keen of
watching news since Im sick of hearing those same old story all over
again, like the undying war of politics, graft & corruption of
government (that lozada thing?), crimes and violence, showbusiness (I
think what is in is about the comeback of Gabby C. duh!), and latest
one is the inflation of our economics that validates our country’s
worsening poverty situation.
I could see that poverty in the country
has made phenomenal widespread that obviously became insufficient to
sustain for all out but our basic subsistence needs. Its frightening
really terrifying…
A number of causes have been pinpointed, and
one of them, is overpopulation. The paper shows that while the number
of children ever born is indeed larger among poorer households. And to
think how will ever survive it especially nowadays that all accomodites
are being increased? Sad to say the reality tells that poor became
poorer and rich became filthier… lol

How could I wish that
all the people could do something ’bout this (at least one is to become
aware for the current situation)… soon enough or before its too late.

PEOPLE HELP OURSELVES FOR THE BETTER!

on the lighter side - here’s a song from Tonic - You Wanter More…

Love is tragic
Love is bold
You will always do what you are told
Love is hard
Love is strong
You will never say that you were wrong
I don’t know when I got bitter
But love is surely better when it’s gone

‘Cause you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can’t live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn’t there

Love is color
Love is loud
Love is never saying you’re too proud
Love is trusting
Love is honest
Love is not a hand to hold you down
I don’t know when I got bitter
But love is surely better when it’s gone

‘Cause you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can’t live

You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn’t there

I got to pick me up when I am down
I got to get my feet back on the ground
I got to pick me up when I am done

I dont know when I got bitter
But love is surely better when it’s gone
I don’t know when I got bitter
But love is surely better when it’s gone
‘Cause you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can’t live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn’t there

You wanted more
More than I could love
More than I could offer
The harder you would shove
You wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can’t live

Episode 4.12: Where The Wild Things Are

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Alas, its finally back! Grey’s Anatomy is on its way this coming April 24th.
Hurray
Ive been undyingly waiting for this next episode, and after reading its
spoiler gee I guess its gonna be dark and twisty to Meredith and
Derek… again… huhuh

Anyway Grey’s Anatomy is currently on hiatus. Due to the strike, 16 of the 23 episodes will be completed. The series was renewed for a fifth season.

Sigh.
At least there will be still another season for sure it would be a long
run. I heard that creator Shonda Rhimes promises; old relationships
will become new again, some people you thought would never get together
will, and there are going to be some interesting outside influences;
just hope this time it will be happily ever after to MERDER… for good.

all new episodes
start feeling
start healing
start living
start fresh
start watching: GREY’S ANATOMY

For more: click HERE

ABG, GAB, BGA, AGB

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Spell it out for me, yes I want a ***!
Been looking for ages to keep my things in safe,
a black one to matches it all times
not so small and big one to look at…
with lots of hide outs for me to keep a secret
and the one that is perfectly made for me…

haha, how will find that?

and oh a gift is better of too… lol

I WANT A BAG!
duh whatever…. hehe

truth hurts…

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Why does it hurt? Why does loving the wrong person hurt more than loving the right one?

one question

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Its actually arousing with no interest or maybe you find this so
tedious, but somehow this one simple question could cudgel one’s
brains, mull your skull, and even hit you deep down to your soul and
will be stun to seek for an anwswer.

"I did".

SO THIS WAS HIS POST…

So
to settle this issue once and for all, I ask to everybody in the world,
or just the people online, this question. It is really a simple
question. (unconsciously I turned to the internet because I think most
people on the net who actually write their own thoughts and reflections
are intelligent life forms, I think most of you would agree on this,
and I’m fed up of real people I meet everyday, I look at them, hurried,
tired, going their own way, can’t even stop to talk because they are
busy, won’t even smile, won’t even say hi, won’t even try). So, going
back to the question. Unless people actually answer this question, and
prove to me that we are beings made by God, capable of thought, of
reason, capable of loving, of emotions other than hate and jealousy,
I’m not going to post anything anymore.

The question:
What is the meaning of your life?

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SO THIS WAS MY ANSWER:

I
guess the time when Im lying on my own glamorous cabin, with millions
of people standing right beside me, my family, long-line of relatives,
friends, enemies, comrades, seatmates, batchmates, classmates, peers,
co workers, acquinted friends, strangers, crushes, ex lovers, my one
and only, my child, my soul… hawling, moorning, grieving, smiling,
wishing, thanking, praying for me… maybe i guess that time Ive
alreadly knew the meaning of my life…

and know what? you really makes me so think of your simpliest excogitative reflective one line question…

-jc

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crazy
right? maybe that time I couldnt spit an honest answer or I simply dont
know the right and meaning answer to give ;well I guess for now not
just yet.

so the question:
What is the meaning of your life?

Think it over!

today; i fear

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There is an element of danger in boating that cannot be eradicated.
Consequently, there is always something for boaters to fear— which
happens to be a good thing. If you spend sufficient time afloat, sooner
or later you will experience fear; but, if you understand that fact and
accept it before you set out, you will deal with the fear-provoking
situation more easily when it arises. Fear is often greater when you’re
alone and forced to fall back on your own resources. It seems to be a
perfectly natural part of single-handed sailing, no matter how macho
you might feel before or afterward.

- Today; I fear

holy week’s get away

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In observance of holy week, me and family went to Badian (as usual)
though with second thoughts i was also invited by a friend to camotes
island and malabuyok (you know for a change), still i was forced with
my mother and as an obedient daughter how can I refused??? *roll yes*

The place is boring, simple, uncivilized, plain, uninterested but even though I found peace.

Wild blue sky, wind smell so sweet, I can even hear birds talking I mean chirping, waves
that washed the sandy shore, trees scraping, chickens whining…  ha
Whew everything was extraordinary!

Then I decided not to think so hard, but even though how much I tried, I guess there are
things that I cant undeniably get rid in my thoughts… in my mind…
Have you ever feel that you decided not to do it but still has the urge of doing it again?
and it just happened, you realized it was a mistake, you regret, you feel sorry and in pain…
When will be the time we’ll ever learned from our mistakes and just exactly when we tell ourselves to just stop???
Do you know?

Sigh.  I know I dont think I actually made much sense but nevertheless I think Im coming up with something…

Here you go…

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now I know…

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I was talking to a friend whom honestly missed talking with . She
usually share her thoughts and moments to her bf but when last year was
tremendous year for them, she started to fall back and told me that she
hated him.
And now, with no words for her about her lovelife
(although Ive heard that theyre still together, she told me, she was
not the girl before who used to cry over her "man of her life". And
suddenly spit these words to me… "time heals".

I was startled
a bit and flash a half smile in my face, greedily agreed; yes its
fucking indeed true that TIME REALLY REALLY HEALS!

Thanks
for the busiest days of my life, it quite help me. And I know this
time, its different, yes I dont feel empty or lonely anymore well in
fact it seems that I enjoyed everything and every moments I have right
now. Well at least I dont seek for more, in a rush time… unlike
before that Im so eagerly want to make things happen so so early.

It feels good, I feel good!

I
remembered before how stressed I am for indulging myself for a new job,
(one of my ways to get rid of my boredom) and thanks to people whom I
asked for advice on what should I do. It was such a relief!
Now
although I dont know if I did the right thing to remain here but I
think its ok, I’ll just wait for the right time to make me firmly
decide without hesitations and doubts of turning back. It will just
come, I know.

And my heart now?, beating at the right track.
She even told me not to worry much, not to feel so much, so emotional
and sensitive.

Yes, so Im proud to say that Im really really ok now.

Last night I almost died…

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and I wish it will never happened again. Ever!

Thank God I
was able to move myself one steP backward bec. if not, if I wasnt??? Im
sure everyone will be staring at me lying full of bloodshed, cutthroat,
pieces of my body disperse everywhere and probably I’ll be in the
headlines today. haha

I was mentally shock then.  I could hear the beat of my heart so fast. It was a heavy blow, impact , an outrage.
For the first time I feel I was very much horrified.

I
told my parents what happened, though with the harsh words of my mother
and worried face of my father, enough to feel that they care for me a
lot.
That night, I realized I still wanted to have a life. Bec. I
know that I havent do anything to make my life even worth it, not just
yet. I still want to pursue my dreams, to reach it not only for myself
but for the people who gave me reasons to believe, who gave me reasons
to live.
I still want a second chance to change the better me.

Even more just a simple things, yes I still want to breathe,
to laugh…
to cry…
to smile…
to hear…
to see people, to see my family, friends, enemies, strangers, to meet them.
to work..
to travel…
to go to my fav places…
to watch tv’s, movies…
to get hurt,
to experience…
to learn new things…
to try, trying…
to feel…
to fight…
to hope…
to love and be loved…
to be HAPPY…

yes I still want this life,  my life… I still want to LIVE!